how could someone not love cats.

are smells really the most memorable thing

dear pandora....

after listening to my bright eyes station i set up a couple of weeks ago i have noticed that you keep suggesting songs i used to always listen to but havent in like two years.

while these songs are playing im remembering who i used to be.  its making me feel nostalgic and grateful.

 i sometimes miss the feelings i used to have because i think i felt more then... but everything i felt was negative.  now i may feel less but at least i dont live with the hope that death will accidentally happen to me.

so thank you for that reminder... love, jessica

music is about the only thing that brings me back there.. and i wonder why people always say smell makes you remember most things.

i think its jessica vance that feels these things and im not her any more. thankfully.